Nadabrahma is the humming meditation – through humming and hand movements conflicting parts of you start falling in tune, and you bring harmony to your whole being.
In some time after starting humming I felt that my hands turned into hands of a dead woman with dead dry flesh and very long nails, after some time my hands changed into the raven claws. I also saw Kho Samui island that was waiting for me with my beloved woman. This I saw during the first part of the meditation. When the second part started in which you should give your energy to God, I saw a dead body with long hairs hovering in the clear blue ocean water and above the body in the blue sunny sky an eagle was soaring. The dead body was spreading its hands at the same time as I was spreading my hands giving my energy to God. I felt that the dead body in the sea and the eagle in the sky are me, and I cried and could not stop. When the third part of the meditation started in which you should take the energy from the Universe, I saw a cinema with the best moments from my life in the past two years mixed with the pictures of the death: the first time in my life I am dancing salsa with my beloved woman, the dead body in the ocean, I am walking with my beloved woman by the sea, she funny stumbled and we were happily laughing – I saw this moment many times, and then again dead hands, I saw a lot of other happy moments with her, but after a while I again saw parts of a dead body and I cried and couldn’t help it. I also cried when I wrote this text. During the last part of the meditation when you should lie still in the silence I could not straighten my legs and I started to feel terrible pain in my knees, as my legs became numb, but I didn’t notice the pain during the meditation.